January was very stressful and full of anxiety and just people who made me feel so bad and caused me loads of anxiety. I even cried a few times because I was so disturbed about their actions and words. Like in a good month I would have not taken it so hard but because I was already so stressed and in a bad place. So that was just the last drop, that broke the camels back, so to say.
I am now also going to a psychologist who is helping me to get a grip on life again. Sometimes you just need someone to talk to who is non-judgemental and doesnt know you and can give her opinion and put things in perspective for you.
For a while I just felt that everything is going badly and everything is just grumbling and couldn’t get a handle of things. But now I feel better, things are moving and also i have taken so of the pressure of off me. I do not have do everything and I dont have to overstressed and overworked myself.
So I want to write a bit about my resolutions for 2018. Lets start it with the positive things. I have been running or exercising at least 3 times a week for the last 5 weeks and I am so proud that I have managed it even in this a bit extreme weather with small snowstorms and ice on the road. It is not bad weather it is bad equipment and laziness.
I have also been learning German, I did not accomplish all my January goals but I did most of them and I am really trying and some days the only things I have done that are productive are running and doing Duolingue. New semester starts in a week and then I will have German lesson twice a week, so it will be easier to learn as I have to go to the lessons and can’t procrastinate until late in the night.
I did a nice facemask today, what I got for “free” because I spent like 15 euros fo some skin care products. I did that Shea butter sheetmask, i have never done sheetmasks before, it was interesting and I really liked it. I do now have a skincare routine that i actually keep but it still can improve a lot, because my skin is quite awful as I have some acne and big pores and some acne scars and really it is not smooth or nice. So I really should improve and experiment some products that might work, but that costs money so we will see.